Thursday, May 29, 2008

I am so tempted to...

Ada saat dalam hari2 gw, di mana gw terpancing banget buat mengeluh.

Cape, bosen, sakit kepala, lemes, mual, sakit badan, sebel, begah, pusing, dan sederet keluhan yang pasti ngga ada habisnya.
Kadang pengen sekali berteriak.. "What the hell with every positive theory yang pernah gw denger/ gw tahu! Emang ngga boleh kadang-kadang gw memanjakan perasaan gw sendiri...?"

Tapi setiap kata-kata di atas terlepas dari mulut gw... gw merefleksikan, efek apa yang terjadi setelah gw melepaskan kata-kata itu?
Apakah semua masalah selesai dalam sekejab?
Apakah setelah itu hati terasa damai?
Apakah benar setiap lelah di badan terasa berkurang setelah itu?
Apakah kata-kata itu mendatangkan berkat bagi diri kita, dan orang-orang di sekitar kita?

Buat gw... rasanya tidak...
malah yang ada, kadang gw jadi terlarut dalam suasana pesimis, apatis, dan jadi menjurus ke depresi, secara gw mendapati diri gw ini gampang sekali depresi.
Saat seperti ini, badan gw lagi capeeee banget. Bawaannya pengen ada di tempat tidur gw/ tempat tidur di hotel di manaaaa gitu...., makan di tempat tidur, baca buku, ngopi, browsing, siangan dikit spa terus massage... kl bisa 1 mgg gitu... :-)
(kl suami gw baca ini, pasti dia geleng2 kepala membayangkan betapa tidak efektifnya gw hehehe...).. tapi yang ada setiap hari ya harus ketemu pasien.

I have no complain! (biarpun tergoda... hehehe)
Gw percaya semua ini adalah berkat. Hari ini gw bisa kerja, pasien berdatangan itu adalah berkat.
Hari ini setelah dari klinik bisa berbajaj ria nyusul suami gw yang lagi ngerjain kerjaannya dari Starbucks Pluit Junction (thans to free wifi!) itu juga berkat.
Apapun yang terjadi dalam kehidupan gw, semuanya pasti mendatangkan kebaikan.
Gw percaya semua yang gw butuhkan akan menghampiri gw. It's just a matter of time.
I am happy with my life, i have a very good hubby, one small angel with the tail, 2 side of parents, one little brother, a lot of brother and sister in Christ... kadang... gw ngga merasa layak untuk memanjakan diri gw dengan sebuah (atau banyak) keluhan.

Just give me stregth my dear lord, give me Your mercy.. so I can be greatfull and free of worry everyday. That I can depend on Your kindness day by day.
buat gw ini bener-bener tantangan hehehe...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Do You Have a Difficult Person in Your Life?

“Lord, help me to bless people today.”


That’s my daily morning prayer… uh, when I’m happy.

And usually, I am.

But once in awhile, I don’t wake up happy.

And usually, it’s because of a difficult person in my life.

That’s when I pray, “Lord, how can I bless this… this… this… creature?”

I’m a very patient person, so this doesn’t happen too often.

But it happens.

Friend, do you have a difficult person in your life?

And do you sometimes want to pray, “Lord, if you will allow it, let a 50,000 megawatt bolt of lightning strike (Name of Difficult Person) right now. Not to kill him, Lord. Just enough to wake him up and give him second degree burns. Just kidding Lord, but with all due respect, what were you thinking when you created this pathological human being? I don’t want to sound offensive, but were you sleeping on the job when you created this creature? He’s a mess. He’s a composite of all the villains of Spiderman put together….”

Do you sometimes wonder if this difficult person heard God in the middle of the night say, “My child, your ultimate mission in life is to be difficult. That’s the entire purpose of your existence. You shall be the thorn in someone’s flesh. Do everything in your power to annoy him. Be irresponsible. Or be demanding. Or be totally negative. Or be selfish. Or be constantly angry. Or be possessive. Or be always depressed. It doesn’t matter. Your objective is to make his life hell on earth.”

Yes, I must admit that I don’t like a few unlovable characters here and there, but generally, I think the Almighty has done a fantastic job inventing human beings.

I also believe that God allows difficult people to come into our lives to give us very special gifts. What could these gifts be?

I’m going to try something new today. Instead of writing down what these gifts are, I’m going to ask YOU to write them on the comments below. Write your thoughts and experiences and share them to the world. Thousands will be reading them. And in my next email next week, I’ll tell you what I think they are…

Cool?

Thank you!

May your dreams come true,

Bo Sanchez

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

My Journey as A Medical Doctor

Perjalanan perkenalan saya dengan dunia kedokteran dimulai bulan Agustus 1991. Saat itu saya menjadi mahasiswi tingkat pertama dari sebuah Universitas di Jakarta. Fakultas Kedokteran Universitas Katolik Atmajaya.

Tahun-tahun belajar di sana, memberikan ilmu dasar dan sensasi awal rasanya memakai jas putih dan dipanggil dengan sapaan "Dok...!"

Rasanya demikian melambung tinggi, dan berbagai idealisme tentang pendidikan, pengobatan, dan pasien rasanya meluap di hati dan otak saya.
Sampai dari waktu ke waktu... semuanya itu mulai pupus perlahan. Kenyataan demi kenyataan mengajarkan saya untuk tidak membawa kesulitan masa depan dalam 1 hari, dan kembali melihat perjalanan saya menjadi seorang dokter adalah perjalanan kemanusiaan.

Akhirnya Juli 2000 saya melakukan sumpah profesi. 9 tahun berlalu dengan 2 1/2 tahun proses ngantri untuk masuk ke coas dan ujian negara, serta 6 1/2 tahun masa pendidikan. Dan waktu itu saya memutuskan untuk bekerja dulu di salah satu perusahaan farmasi sambil menunggu panggilan PTT. Tetapi karier yang membaik membuat saya sempat melupakan impian untuk praktek. Sampai satu hari saya menyadari... bertemu pasien adlah hidup saya.Melihat mereka membaik dari waktu ke waktu adalah impian saya. Dan membuat mereka tersenyum bahagia adalah tujuan keilmuan saya.

Kekecewaan demi kekecewaan mendera. Dan saya memutuskan, harus keluar dari dunia farmasi sebelum saya malu mengakui diri saya sebagai dokter. Politik perdagangan obat, kerjasama dokter dan farmasi yang makin lama makin tidak masuk akal, pemakaian obat yang sangat tidak relevan, semua membuat saya memiliki cara pandang yang mungkin extreem dan sulit diterima oleh teman sejawat lainnya.

Dan sampailah saya pada pengenalan akan Biophysic Medicine. Satu ilmu komplementer yang membuka wawasan baru dalam dunia kedokteran saya. Membawa pikiran saya "out of the box" dan melihat betapa tubuh manusia adalah ciptaan Tuhan yang luar biasa.
Dulu di dunia kedokteran konvensional, tidak habisnya saya berdecak kagum.
Hari ini... tidak habisnya saya mensyukuri... keberadaan saya di dunia yang sarat dengan keajaiban dan kebesaran. Dari yang terlihat sampai yang tidak terlihat. Dari yang terjangkau, sampai yang tidak terjangkau. Dan semuanya itu... ingin saya persembahkan untuk kemanusiaan.
Kalau dari awal... semuanya adalah satu impian untuk kemanusiaan, biarlah semua proses ini juga dapat membantu banyak orang... untuk dapat memaknai dan mensyukuri kehidupannya.

Quotes from Medical World:

In nothing do men more nearly approach the gods than in giving health to men. ~Cicero

The greatest mistake in the treatment of diseases is that there are physicians for the body and physicians for the soul, although the two cannot be separated. ~Plato

Body and soul cannot be separated for purposes of treatment, for they are one and indivisible. Sick minds must be healed as well as sick bodies. ~C. Jeff Miller

In the sick room, ten cents' worth of human understanding equals ten dollars' worth of medical science. ~Martin H. Fischer

It is a mathematical fact that fifty percent of all doctors graduate in the bottom half of their class. ~Author Unknown

Restore a man to his health, his purse lies open to thee. ~Robert Burton

I got the bill for my surgery. Now I know what those doctors were wearing masks for. ~James H. Boren

A hospital should also have a recovery room adjoining the cashier's office. ~Francis O'Walsh

Did God who gave us flowers and trees,
Also provide the allergies?
~E.Y. Harburg, "A Nose Is a Nose Is a Nose," 1965

I learned a long time ago that minor surgery is when they do the operation on someone else, not you. ~Bill Walton

It is a wise mans part, rather to avoid sickness, than to wishe for medicines. ~Thomas More, Utopia [sic]

I wondher why ye can always read a doctor's bill an' ye niver can read his purscription. ~Finley Peter Dunne

You have a cough? Go home tonight, eat a whole box of Ex-Lax - tomorrow you'll be afraid to cough. ~Pearl Williams

To array a man's will against his sickness is the supreme art of medicine. ~Henry Ward Beecher

A doctor whose breath smells has no right to medical opinion. ~Martin H. Fischer

Surgeons must be very careful
When they take the knife!
Underneath their fine incisions
Stirs the Culprit - Life!
~Emily Dickinson

It is a good thing for a physician to have prematurely grey hair and itching piles. The first makes him appear to know more than he does, and the second gives him an expression of concern which the patient interprets as being on his behalf. ~A. Benson Cannon

A doctor who cannot take a good history and a patient who cannot give one are in danger of giving and receiving bad treatment. ~Author Unknown

One thousand Americans stop smoking every day - by dying. ~Author Unknown

A hypochondriac is one who has a pill for everything except what ails him. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

The art of medicine consists in amusing the patient while nature cures the disease. ~Voltaire

A doctor must work eighteen hours a day and seven days a week. If you cannot console yourself to this, get out of the profession. ~Martin H. Fischer

It is sometimes as dangerous to be run into by a microbe as by a trolley car. ~J.J. Walsh

Every disease is a physician. ~Irish Proverb

God heales, and the Physitian hath the thankes. ~George Herbert, Outlandish Proverbs

Drugs are not always necessary. Belief in recovery always is. ~Norman Cousins

I firmly believe that if the whole materia medica could be sunk to the bottom of the sea, it would be all the better for mankind and all the worse for the fishes. ~Oliver Wendell Holmes

There is no curing a sick man who believes himself to be in health. ~Henri Amiel

Doctors think a lot of patients are cured who have simply quit in disgust. ~Don Herold

The only equipment lack in the modern hospital? Somebody to meet you at the entrance with a handshake! ~Martin H. Fischer

The worst thing about medicine is that one kind makes another necessary. ~Elbert Hubbard

When you are called to a sick man, be sure you know what the matter is - if you do not know, nature can do a great deal better than you can guess. ~Nicholas de Belleville

Throw physic to the dogs; I'll none of it. ~William Shakespeare

I recently became a Christian Scientist. It was the only health plan I could afford. ~Betsy Salkind


Poisons and medicine are oftentimes the same substance given with different intents. ~Peter Mere Latham

In the nineteenth century men lost their fear of God and acquired a fear of microbes. ~Author Unknown

Symptoms, then are in reality nothing but the cry from suffering organs. ~Jean Martin Charcot, translated from French

I never read a patent medicine advertisement without being impelled to the conclusion that I am suffering from the particular disease therein dealt with in its most virulent form. ~Jerome K. Jerome, Three Men in a Boat

Diagnosis is not the end, but the beginning of practice. ~Martin H. Fischer

The physician should look upon the patient as a besieged city and try to rescue him with every means that art and science place at his command. ~Alexander of Tralles

Physicians and politicians resemble one another in this respect, that some defend the constitution and others destroy it. ~Author Unknown

A smart mother makes often a better diagnosis than a poor doctor. ~August Bier

When fate arrives the physician becomes a fool. ~Arabic Proverb

Medicines are not meat to live by. ~German Proverb

Treat the patient, not the Xray. ~James M. Hunter

God and the Doctor we alike adore
But only when in danger, not before;
The danger o'er, both are alike requited,
God is forgotten, and the Doctor slighted.
~Robert Owen

Financial ruin from medical bills is almost exclusively an American disease. ~Roul Turley

The hospital is the only proper College in which to rear a true disciple of Aesculapius. ~John Abernethy

A man who cannot work without his hypodermic needle is a poor doctor. The amount of narcotic you use is inversely proportional to your skill. ~Martin H. Fischer

Better to hunt in fields, for health unbought,
Than fee the doctor for a nauseous draught,
The wise, for cure, on exercise depend;
God never made his work for man to mend.
~John Dryden

Medicine is the only profession that labours incessantly to destroy the reason for its own existence. ~James Bryce, 1914

It is not a case we are treating; it is a living, palpitating, alas, too often suffering fellow creature. ~John Brown

The patient does not care about your science; what he wants to know is, can you cure him? ~Martin H. Fischer

Medicines heals doubts as well as diseases. ~Karl Marx

A physician is obligated to consider more than a diseased organ, more even than the whole man - he must view the man in his world. ~Harvey Cushing

Medicine sometimes snatches away health, sometimes gives it. ~Ovid, Tristia

As it takes two to make a quarrel, so it takes two to make a disease, the microbe and its host. ~Charles V. Chapin

Disease is war with the laws of our being, and all war, as a great general has said, is hell. ~Lewis G. Janes

Until a physician has killed one or two he is not a physician. ~Kashmiri Proverb

No man is a good doctor who has never been sick himself. ~Chinese Proverb

Only one rule in medical ethics need concern you - that action on your part which best conserves the interests of your patient. ~Martin H. Fischer

To me the ideal doctor would be a man endowed with profound knowledge of life and of the soul, intuitively divining any suffering or disorder of whatever kind, and restoring peace by his mere presence. ~Henri Amiel

Medicinal discovery,
It moves in mighty leaps,
It leapt straight past the common cold
And give it us for keeps.
~Pam Ayres

When you no longer know what headache, heartache, or stomachache means without cistern punctures, electrocardiograms and six x-ray plates, you are slipping. ~Martin H. Fischer

It is easy to get a thousand prescriptions but hard to get one single remedy. ~Chinese Proverb

Never forget that it is not a pneumonia, but a pneumonic man who is your patient. ~William Withey Gull

It is said to be the manner of hypochondriacs to change often their physician. ~William Cullen, Practice of Physic

The road to medical knowledge is through the pathological museum and not through an apothecary's shop. ~William Withey Gull

A Short History of Medicine
2000 B.C. - "Here, eat this root."
1000 B.C. - "That root is heathen, say this prayer."
1850 A.D. - "That prayer is superstition, drink this potion."
1940 A.D. - "That potion is snake oil, swallow this pill."
1985 A.D. - "That pill is ineffective, take this antibiotic."
2000 A.D. - "That antibiotic is artificial. Here, eat this root."
~Author Unknown

When a lot of remedies are suggested for a disease, that means it cannot be cured. ~Anton Chekhov, The Cherry Orchard

A half doctor near is better than a whole one far away. ~German Proverb

No doctor is better than three. ~German Proverb

I will lift mine eyes unto the pills. Almost everyone takes them, from the humble aspirin to the multi-coloured, king-sized three deckers, which put you to sleep, wake you up, stimulate and soothe you all in one. It is an age of pills. ~Malcolm Muggeridge, 1962

Man may be the captain of his fate, but is also the victim of his blood sugar. ~Wilfrid G. Oakley

Faith and knowledge lean largely upon each other in the practice of medicine. ~Peter Mere Latham

Each patient ought to feel somewhat the better after the physician's visit, irrespective of the nature of the illness. ~Warfield Theobald Longcope

Who ever thought up the word "Mammogram?" Every time I hear it, I think I'm supposed to put my breast in an envelope and send it to someone. ~Jan King
Never go to a doctor whose office plants have died. ~Erma Bombeck
You may know the intractability of a disease by its long list of remedies. ~Alonzo Clark

Here's good advice for practice: go into partnership with nature; she does more than half the work and asks none of the fee. ~Martin H. Fischer

Varicose veins are the result of an improper selection of grandparents. ~William Osler

If you are too smart to pay the doctor, you had better be too smart to get ill. ~African Proverb

When you treat a disease, first treat the mind. ~Chen Jen

Symptoms are the body's mother tongue; signs are in a foreign language. ~John Brown

The doctor of the future will give no medicine but will interest his patients in the care of the human frame, in diet and in the cause and prevention of disease. ~Thomas Edison

Oh the powers of nature. She knows what we need, and the doctors know nothing. ~Benvenuto Cellini

So many come to the sickroom thinking of themselves as men of science fighting disease and not as healers with a little knowledge helping nature to get a sick man well. ~Auckland Geddes, The Practitioner

Where a man feels pain he lays his hand. ~Dutch Proverb

The doctor is often more to be feared than the disease. ~French Proverb

Despite all our toil and progress, the art of medicine still falls somewhere between trout casting and spook writing. ~Ben Hecht, Miracle of the Fifteen Murderers

The Lord hath created medicines out of the earth; and he that is wise will not abhor them. ~Ecclesiasticus 38:4

A drug is that substance which, when injected into a rat, will produce a scientific report. ~Author Unknown

Cancer is a word, not a sentence. ~John Diamond

The medicalization of early diagnosis not only hampers and discourages preventative health-care but it also trains the patient-to-be to function in the meantime as an acolyte to his doctor. He learns to depend on the physician in sickness and in health. He turns into a life-long patient. ~Ivan Illich

Patients may recover in spite of drugs or because of them. ~J.H. Gaddum

He's the best physician that knows the worthlessness of the most medicines. ~Benjamin Franklin

Physiology is the stepchild of medicine. That is why Cinderella often turns out the queen. ~Martin H. Fischer

The field of Western medicine has become literally nothing but medicine. Doctors are on their way out, to be replaced by self-serve pharmaceutical vending machines. ~Grey Livingston

The fact that your patient gets well does not prove that your diagnosis was correct. ~Samuel J. Meltzer

Man is a creature composed of countless millions of cells: a microbe is composed of only one, yet throughout the ages the two have been in ceaseless conflict. ~A.B. Christie

Our profession is the only one which works unceasingly to annihilate itself. ~Martin H. Fischer

On J-Day our profession will have a lot to answer for! We might at least have withheld our hands instead of making them work against God. ~Martin H. Fischer

The doctor may also learn more about the illness from the way the patient tells the story than from the story itself. ~James B. Herrick

Don't think of organ donations as giving up part of yourself to keep a total stranger alive. It's really a total stranger giving up almost all of themselves to keep part of you alive. ~Author Unknown

Most of those evils we poor mortals know
From doctors and imagination flow.
~Charles Churchill

Men are not going to embrace eugenics. They are going to embrace the first likely, trim-figured girl with limpid eyes and flashing teeth who comes along, in spite of the fact that her germ plasm is probably reeking with hypertension, cancer, haemophilia, colour blindness, hay fever, epilepsy, and amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. ~Logan Clendening

Don't take your organs to heaven with you. Heaven knows we need them here. ~Author unknown, attributed to both Dan and Barbara Hladio and Thomas Boyadjis, Sr.

'Tis not always in a physician's power to cure the sick; at times the disease is stronger than trained art. ~Ovid

And lo, The Hospital, grey, quiet, old, Where Life and Death like friendly chafferers meet. ~William Ernest Henley

For the most part, Western medicine doctors are not healers, preventers, listeners, or educators. But they're damned good at saving a life and the other aspects kick the beam. It's about time we brought some balance back to the scale. ~Claire Todae

A sweating ovary or a sick prostate explains most history. ~Martin H. Fischer

The only weapon with which the unconscious patient can immediately retaliate upon the incompetent surgeon is hemorrhage. ~William Stewart Halsted

The public blabbers about preventative medicine, but will neither appreciate nor pay for it. You get paid for what you cure. ~Martin H. Fischer

To save a man's life against his will is the same as killing him. ~Horace

Nowadays the clinical history too often weighs more than the man. ~Martin H. Fischer

Hypochondriacs squander large sums of time in search of nostrums by which they vainly hope they may get more time to squander. ~Mortimer Collins

One doctor makes work for another. ~English Proverb

Doctors are just the same as lawyers; the only difference is that lawyers merely rob you, whereas doctors rob you and kill you, too. ~Anton Chekhov, Ivanov

Let the young know they will never find a more interesting, more instructive book than the patient himself. ~Giorgio Baglivi

Formerly, when religion was strong and science weak, men mistook magic for medicine; now, when science is strong and religion weak, men mistake medicine for magic. ~Thomas Szasz, The Second Sin, 1973

Quotes by Women who inspire my life.

"My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment." (by Oprah Winfrey)

"Hidup benar di hadapan Tuhan. Percayalah... apa yang kau buat pasti berhasil!"
(by my mom)


"Spread love everywhere you go: first of all in your own house. Give love to your children, to your wife or husband, to a next door neighbor. Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness; kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile, kindness in your warm greeting."
(by Mother Teresa)